Wednesday, June 23, 2010

Chalene Extreme

There is nothing like a good workout! I brought it last night with Chalene Extreme Burn 2. Strangely, I don’t feel sore. I maxed out so I’m surprised. Then again, when I worked out Friday night, I didn’t feel the sore for 2 days later, hehe.

I love working out!!! I feel so great today and I know it is due to the improved diet and beginning exercising again. Why is it that we allow ourselves to derail so quickly when we get such great benefits from exercise? Granted, life sometimes catches up with us and we get side-tracked but we would feel (and look) so much better if we stayed the course.

Ah well, such is life.

Monday, June 7, 2010

It was a steal!!! $14 at Lowes!  It was the last one and it was the floor model.  I was so happy because I was thinking I would have to spend a couple hundred dollars to get a nice ceiling lamp that I liked. 

The wall color is Hazy Sage from Glidden.  It is gorgeous and I don't think this picture does it justice.

Monday, May 31, 2010

Painting.....well, priming, actually.

I spent the weekend priming the ceiling with Kilz2. We attempted to texturize the ceiling, without much luck. It didn’t turn out the way we expected. Of course, neither of us has ever tried retexturing anything before so our novice-hood was apparent.

 The can of texture we purchased was just not doing the trick and for $20/can, it only covered a 1x4 foot. I was supremely frustrated when my husband announced that we would have to wait until next weekend to do anything as more texture was not in our redecorating budget for this week.

I was so disappointed and began to clean up when my husband suggested we follow the directions on the can (who would have thought of that!) and prime the ceiling first. I remembered that we had a can of Kilz in the garage and I promptly pulled it out and began to paint the ceiling. It made a huge difference and I was happy to have made some progress this weekend.

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Steven's Room

My son's room has recently become vacant as he has moved in with a friend.  This has given me the opportunity to begin my decorating journey.  I plan to make his room into a sewing/craft studio that will double as a guest room.  We have removed the popcorn ceiling and will be covering the exposed drywall this weekend.

Here are some recent pictures of Matthew:

Monday, May 24, 2010

May 24, 2010

Been very busy lately trying to decide how to decorate my house now that our bills have eased somewhat.  I've been scouring the web for ideas and I've come across some fantastic blogs!  These women have such wonderful taste and have done a great deal of their decorating with flea market, garage sale and thrift store finds. 

As I looked through their pictures, my mind began racing as to all the things stored in my cluttered garage from my packrat husband who refuses to throw anything away.  I realized I had my own treasure trove of things I could remake, reuse and recycle to make my house a country-cottage home.  It would just take some effort on my part to look at things with different eyes and let my creativity loose.

Thursday, April 8, 2010

Sex and the City

About two months ago, I transferred to another division of my company. Ultimately wanting to be a part of logistics, I accepted a position in receiving. This allowed me to dress in jeans and tennis shoes everyday.

You might think that dressing down everyday at work is a wonderful thing. However, I have since found that the way you dress at work indicates your position in the hierarchy of things. The jeans and tennis shoes indicated that I was a low-level worker (despite my MBA). As a result, I started to wear my more professional wardrobe and I feel a little better about myself.

I find however, that I need to step it up a little more still. It isn’t really necessary that I do this it’s just that there are a few women at this new division who have the cutest clothes!!! One is downright Sex and the City cute. She is always very well put together in designer fashions (apparently her husband makes very good money and she has no children!). Another woman is my age and really dresses in the cutest clothes that are age-appropriate. These two women make me sit back and say to myself, “ I can dress like that!!!” I just don’t because I’m generally lazy.

Clothes like that really make a woman feel better about herself. Like my sister Linda, who always looks very well dressed and matched even on her casual days, I need to step up my look so that I don’t appear so frumpy all the time.

Coco Chanel said, “Dress shabbily, you notice the dress. Dress impeccably, you notice the woman.” Although I think in the case of Sex and the City, the clothing is more noticeable than the women, in real life I think Coco had it dead-on. I have been inspired by these two women at work to dress more fashionably and take more care with my appearance. 

Friday, March 26, 2010

3:00 a.m.

Recently, I've been waking up at 3 am to work out.  Most people think that is crazy and some mornings, I agree with them.  But working a full-time job and having a toddler around the house, it is the only time I can fit a workout in.  And since I have a toddler, I have to work out to keep up with him.  Mom ain't no spring chicken anymore and she has to go the extra mile to stay healthy so that she can dance at her second son's wedding, heh.

So, 3 mornings per week, I drag myself out of bed at 3 (really only an hour earlier than usual since I work early morning hours), change into some workout clothes and join Tony Horton in his P90X.  It's a fantastic workout.

Last weekend, I found an activity table at a garage sale that I brought home and filled with sand for Matthew to play in.  He had great fun!  The weather was beautiful and he relished being outside.  He then helped Daddy clean the pool.

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Looney Tunes

The Phoenix Airport has a satellite gallery of the Phoenix Art Museum that usually features local artists but sometimes showcases modern art from all over the world. So, while I was waiting for my daughter's plane to take of on Saturday morning, I had the opportunity to peruse the gallery offerings. 

That morning, the gallery was showing original artwork by Chuck Jones. What a gift!!  I saw original pencil drawings of Bugs Bunny and Daffy Duck as well as original still life oils and cells from many of the Looney Toons cartoons. In addition, a television was playing a documentary on Chuck Jones with interviews from everyone - still alive - who were involved in the Bugs Bunny/Looney Tunes cartoons.  It discussed how the characters had developed and the funny situations they were put in. 

I sat there, watching the documentary for 20 minutes, laughing out loud at the cartoons, until my toddler got bored enough to be a problem.  I reluctantly had to leave but I thoroughly enjoyed watching those wonderfully funny cartoons.

When I got home, I promptly put in my Looney Tunes Golden Edition DVD.

Saturday, March 13, 2010


Why are celebrities so damn stupid??  Every few weeks I have to read about some celebrity making a stupid - and inaccurate - comment about history.  While I expect it from the likes of socialist-loving and First Ammendment-hating Sean Penn, I must admit I was surprised that Tom Hanks has now joined the bandwagon.  In an interview with Douglas Brinkley in Time magazine, Hanks said,

“Back in World War II, we viewed the Japanese as ‘yellow, slant-eyed dogs’ that believed in different gods. They were out to kill us because our way of living was different. We, in turn, wanted to annihilate them because they were different. Does that sound familiar, by any chance, to what’s going on today?”

An effective rejoinder can be found here but I am so sick and tired of listening to celebrities talk out there ass about things they have no clue about.  Now, Tom Hanks, one of the few celebrities whose movies I still liked, has joined the rank and file Hollywood celebrity idiot.

Apparently, celebrities believe that the parts they have played have imbued them with the knowledge of the ages and that makes them uniquely qualified to act the expert on any subject under the sun.   What they don't understand is that they have  no clue what real people do on a day to day basis and most of them would not be able to survive in the real world.  Time and again they use their influence and popularity through a free podium known as the main-stream media to promote a revisionist history and a socialist political agenda. As a result, I take great offense at any celebrity who tries to tell me how to live, how to vote, what is "really going on" in the world, and then try to force their revisionist history down my throat. They now believe their own bullshit and have worked at pretending (acting) so long that they cannot tell fantasy from reality.

Celebrities are getting worse and worse and there are fewer and fewer movies I will go see anymore because I'm so fucking tired of them using their influence and free press to broadcast their stupidities.  Now, I have to add Tom Hanks to that ever-growing list of celebrities I refuse to pay money to see:  Hanks, Penn, Stone, Damon, etc., etc.

If Gerard Butler goes political, I'm going to kill myself!

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

Pantheon, Acropolis, et. al.....

I could write a post of general musings and talk about my dad's health, work, Matthew or other things that may not be of particular interest to anyone but me.  So, I've decided I will talk about the fantastic games I play on the Internet.

One of these games is called Pantheon and it was developed by a friend who I will name "Xar." Xar happens to be a Ph.d. in biology.  He lives in Germany and was born in Rome, Italy.  The players of this game are from all over the world and include 2 MBAs (myself, included), computer programmers, a housewife,   It is a game played on a discussion thread so there is no game board or pieces.  It is very much like Dungeons and Dragons - all imagination  The players are gods in a pantheon of a fantasty world. The gods have chosen domains (I have played Jove, the goddess of  wealth, commerce and travel, Calais/Vashitva, goddess of earth and death, and Arcadia, goddess of love). We get points - divine points - gained from the amount of "followers" we have.  We have a prophet who is our voice on the planet and whom we can imbue with special powers.  The game itself really has no object - no end goal.  Although I have played 3 versions of the game and many players seem to think that the object of the game is to become the lone god, thus changing the planet to a monotheistic society.  Other players like having multiple gods and a pantheon and focus on city-building.  Overall, there are no limits other than your own imagination.

I also play 2 shoot off games of Pantheon - Aesir and Acropolis.  In Aesir, I am playing Jove again (she was such a great character!) and in Acropolis, I play Diana, goddess of fertility.  These games are on much smaller scales than Pantheon and are based in cities rather than in worlds, for the most part.  They move slower and are just as fun as Pantheon.

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

New Disneyland Pictures

I had the opportunity to visit the park recently and I took a few photos:

Monday, March 1, 2010

Nail polish

I’ve never been one to have acrylic nails although, I have had them in the past. They tend to be too think and too rigid and I find that I end up hurting myself more often than not because the nail gets caught on something and because it doesn’t give, its like tearing the nail off the finger. Hence, I have stayed to my natural nails as they have always grown like weeds and been very healthy overall. The problem with my natural nails was that nail polish would chip the same day. I was never able to keep it looking good. So, I stopped polishing my nails.

Years ago my sisters and I discovered a product called DeLor Chip Proof Polish Shield. It was the best stuff on the market! I could wear polish for a week and it would never chip. I used it until I moved to Arizona in 2003 and I have not been able to locate it since. I have even googled it and nothing. I could never find anything that worked even remotely as well so as a result, I again went without nail color and considered getting acrylics just so I could wear polish.

Walking through the mall the other day, I passed a salon that had OPI nail polish prominently displayed and I stopped to longingly look at all the beautiful colors, again toying with the idea of acrylics. The attendant approached me and I told her my dilemma. She suggested I try a good base coat and recommended ESSI brand. She said it was tacky and bound the color to the nail. Ever the one to try something new so that I can polish my nails, I gave it a try. Lo and behold, it has been three days and not one chip! I am so delighted!

Turning Vegetarian (well, not really....)

This weekend I decided to heed the advice of my friend James, who told me that he is losing weight like a fiend by going vegetarian. Now, James is by no means a vegetarian but he was inspired by the book, Skinny Bitch, to go vegetarian for a while and see how he fares.

You see, James and I were workout buddies (and still are, I suppose) as we tackled P90X together. We worked out to the same set every night at our respective homes, coached each other on how and what to eat, and lamented our sore muscles every morning. We also shared our joys at feeling better overall and satisfaction at being able to even DO P90X.

As December had rolled around, I lost interest in P90X and needed a break from the daily grind of working out. Coupled with raising a toddler, I ran out of time and energy and motivation. My eating habits suffered and my rear expanded. James soon followed suit although he had not lost motivation. He just lost time.

James therefore, maintained his diet and read Skinny Bitch. For those of you who haven’t read that book, it is a girlfriend’s book of clean eating and tells it like it is. The authors are very hard critics of the meat industry and promote health by going vegetarian. I had read the book but was underimpressed with its preachy demeanor and quickly dismissed the entire book.

James read the book and decided to give it a go. In the month that he has been going vegetarian (although he professes to not be entirely vegetarian), he has completely lost his love handles, feels fantastic and exercises moderately 3 times per week. He helped another friend try it and she has already felt a difference in the way her clothes fit and she also is hooked.

So, as James bragged to me about his success and talked to me about the things I should eat and what my grocery shopping list should look like, I trooped out to Sprouts and Whole Foods to find the foods I would need to go vegetarian.  I may not have the time to workout as I'd like but diet is something I can controll very easily.

Today is my first day on it and I am feeling pretty good. I have lots of fruit and vegetables and I have nixed all sugar from my diet. Everything I have whole and natural and my animal fat is extremely limited. It is a great deal like the Primal Diet only it does not allow meat. I’m not a big meat eater anyways so I doubt that I will miss meat that much. Of course, it will be a challenge to feed the rest of the family, not that I have much luck in that area anyway.

We will see how long it lasts and if it works.

Thursday, February 25, 2010

Brazlian Butt

I woke up early this morning and decided to get out of bed and do the Cardio Axe (pronounced ash-ay) before I went to work.  It turned out to be a very fun workout and not near as difficult as the Bum-Bum workout that left me crippled for 3 days.  It was a 30 minute workout of which I lasted 25.  Not bad, I thought.  I do not feel sore in anyway but I also do not feel as if I could work out again this afternoon.  Perhaps I will tackle Bum-Bum again tomorrow morning so that I can hobble around all weekend.

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Working out

I am finding that I have little time to work out and its driving me insane.  I like to walk at the very least and really don't have time for even that.  I think that television has something to do with my lack of inspiration when it comes to working out because at the end of the day, all I want to do is veg in front of it and turn off from my extraordinarily busy day.  I don't think I'm alone in this venture. Yet, I know several people who do not do this.  Instead, they work out.  It sounds insane to me - to work out at 7 or 8 o'clock at night - but it seems to work for them.

I was talking to a co-working this morning who said that after working 2 hours overtime, he had dinner, spent time with his son and then worked out for an hour and a half.  He then showered and went to bed at 11:00.  He was at work at 5:30 this morning.  Now, granted, he is 24 and all us older, wiser folks know that only a young person can do that.  If I tried, I would be dead within about 3 days.  But, the one thing he told me was that he doesn't watch TV.  No wonder he has time to workout!!

Greg and I got rid of our cable so that Matthew would not grow up glued to the TV and be more interested in other things like reading.  We have found however, that the shows we regularly watch are on standard TV and we never really needed cable. As a result, we haven't stopped watching TV at all! 

I have a feeling that turning off the TV or rather, pushing play to work out, is going to be more of a challenge than eating clean. I will need to chose picking up a book instead of turning on American Idol.  Strange that it seems like something I have to train myself to do - just like I need to train myself to eat clean and exercise.

Friday, February 19, 2010

So many things to say, so little time

Do I talk about how sore I am from doing my Brazlian Butt DVD last night, or do I talk about how perfect George Clooney always looks?  How about the outstanding review I just recieved this morning from my boss who is encouraging me to be myself because it has a calming effect on the office?  Or maybe the haircut I'm considering. Decisions, decisions.....

I certainly am sore from doing the Bum-Bum (prounounced boom-boom) last night.  It was a kick-ass workout, hehehe, and I am feeling the effects of it this morning. I was hoping I wouldn't be so sore because I do not want to end up not exercising while I recover.  I will attempt the cardio workout as prescribed this afternoon and I hope it doesn't have too many squats!

George Clooney.  Ah, what can I say?  If it wasn't for his politics, he would be the perfect man.  I recall seeing him a few months ago in front of some congressional committee and he was dressed in a gray suit.  I could almost smell his cologne through the television!  Every hair was in place and I can't say that I've ever seen a more impressive-looking man in my life. He was just gorgeous.

This morning, I ran across a couple of pictures of him with Ewan MacGregor at the premier of their movie, Men Who Stare at Goats. Both of them looked so handsome but George is like a tall drink of water.  He looks good no matter what he does.  His little Italian bird is a lucky woman.  Like most men, all he has to do is keep his mouth shut and stand there and be handsome, and I'll be happy.

I'm not really sure about this yet but I'm considering getting my haircut like this (of course, I wouldn't mind having her body either but that isn't something I can go to the beauty parlor to get!):

I think the cut would look good on me but then I would have to style my hair every morning and I absolutely hate doing that!  Sometimes I just want to put my hair in a ponytail, especially on those really hot days and anyone living in Phoenix knows that ends up being about 300 days of the year!  On the other hand, this style is short enough to be cool AND look good during the long summers.

Thursday, February 18, 2010

Back in the saddle

I began my workouts again this morning after the stomach flu, cold, new job, and new daycare, AND my Dad's illness.  Whew!  It has been a busy month.

I finally cracked open my Brazlian Butt DVD and did the introductory workout and 5 minutes of the Bum Bum Rapido for a total of about a 25 minute workout.  I have had to rearrange my mornings to fit in a workout but it seemed to run smoothly and I even got a little web surfing in during breakfast!  Ah, multi-tasking - it's a wonderful thing!

I stocked my lunch bag with clean eats - lots of fruit and vegies and hard boiled eggs along with my Shakology so I am hoping to feel good today.  I'm drinking water as if I haven't had water in weeks.

It never ceases to amaze me though, how much better I feel after exercising.  With all the stress of the past month, I haven't been in the best of moods.  My anxiety attacks have returned and I have been exhausted.  By contrast, this morning, I feel wonderful..  I am upbeat, happy, and generally in a good mood.

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

Blogs, Blogs Everywhere

I have become hooked to blogs and blogging. Every second I have, I click the Next Blog button and peek into the lives of people I’ve never met.

It was this way that I discovered, and have become a fan of, The Sassy Curmudgeon, a humorously written blog that I think every woman in America can identify with. This blog was listed as a Blog of Note for the month. It has led me to other blogs, some of which are newer than mine but already have quite a following.

I have to say that I’m a little jealous that I haven’t had anyone follow my blog. Perhaps I’m just not as witty a writer. Maybe my blog is too filled with angst or perhaps I’m not as interesting a person as I have convinced myself I am. My two teenagers constantly remind me how un-cool I am, despite my lame efforts to be “sick” (the new slang for “cool”). I fear that my blogging may lead to the same conclusion: I am so not cool.

Funny, I read an article this morning about embracing your inner nerd as far as movies are concerned. We all have our guilty pleasures that link us to nerd-hood. I think that is why I like The Sassy Curmudgeon so much. She owns her inner nerd while being one of the coolest (sickest) bloggers around.

I was reading her blog today and she linked to another blog called Fabulous in Park Slope – another blog about being rich, skinny and fabulous in New York. In essence, a Sex in the City-type blog about fashion. Strangely, I always thought of myself as fabulous and yet if I gauged myself by FiPS, I would be sorely lacking. I think I may be too practical to be fabulous. Hot pink purses just don’t suit me, nor do Loubitans (hell, I can’t even walk in high heels anymore!). Give me a good pair of loafers and Levi’s and I’m set!

Daycare Days

Matthew started a new daycare yesterday.  One that is closer to home so that I don't have to drive 25 minutes out of my way to pick him up.  Drop off was tough, so I"m told, and Daddy felt horrible to leave his little boy screaming on the floor.  Oh well, such is life.

Last weekend I was recovering from the stomach flu.  I am now in full steam ahead on a cold.  The worst thing about it is that my eyes are watering like crazy and my mascara is running down my face!  In addition, I generally sound like a frog from my sore throat.  However, I need to recuperate before I see my Dad this weekend, as I'm sure it wouldn't be very good to be sick around him in his failing health.

I'm looking forward to seeing my sister this weekend.  It would be nice if it were under better circumstances but it will still be all good.  I hope to hit the park on Saturday night for a couple of hours before I head home on Sunday.

Thursday, February 4, 2010

Hugs and Kisses

Matthew is not very cuddly. He doesn’t like to hug and kiss like most babies do. He is far too busy exploring his world to be bothered with giving affection to mom and dad. He doesn’t want to miss a bit of the world around him, so voracious his curiosity. While I embrace his need for exploration, I would love to be able to just hug my little boy for a brief moment and enjoy holding him.

He allowed me to do that last night for the first time. He was exhausted from his day and he spent about 15 minutes wanting mommy, then wanting daddy. He rested his head on our shoulders, sucked his thumb and both mom and dad reveled in this quiet moment.

I wish we had more of them.

On a different note, I've come to the conclusion that I will most likely have to cook my meals for the week on the weekend.  That way, I can come home and just put dinner in the oven.  I have precious little time to be cooking dinner every night (especially if I ever want to begin exercising again) and my demanding child keeps my attention on him for the most part.  Fast food dinners will quickly get boring and I'm running out of things to make in a few minutes.  Even crock pot dinners require prep time - something that I just don't have if I want to get in some exercise time.

Hence, I think this weekend I will put aside some time and make a few dinners.  Wish me luck!

Thursday, January 28, 2010

New Job Part 2

My new boss told me yesterday what he is hoping will happen with hiring me.  The department is pretty unprofessional and lax, as warehouses can be.  The warehouse workers swear freely (which my new boss is trying to restrict, without much success) and the dress code is jeans and t-shirts.  He was hoping that hiring me would help bring the level of professionalism up to standards.  Hence, I think I will stop wearing jeans and go back to wearing my office wardrobe.  It makes me look more professional and certainly feel more professional.  Of course, I will be the best dressed person in the office but, such is life. 

Saturday, January 23, 2010

Disneyland Main Street Windows

One of my favorite things is going to Disneyland.  I grew up in Southern Califorina and Disneyland was part of my backyard.  I even did a stint as security for a few years and it was one of the best times of my life.  I hope to have Disneyland as my retirement job.

One of the fondest memories I have of Disneyland is the windows on Main Street.  The windows were always decorated with scenes from the latest Disney film and I was enchanted with them as I walked down Main Street as my family first arrived at the park for the day.

I am still fascinated with the windows as they are changed with the seasons.  Here are some of my favorites:

New job

I started my new job this past week and I have to say that I love it!  It is very hectic and busy but there are no projects to do for days on end and everyone is of the same mindset to get the work done as quickly as possible so everyone can go home for the day.  It appears that Mondays and Tuesdays are usually very busy and the rest of the week, the work dies down althought I'm sure this can change at a moment's notice.

The downside is the drive home.  I am much further and getting to pick up Matthew at daycare is a challenge.  Hence, I have decided to put him in a daycare a little closer to home so that Steven can pick him up if I'm going to be late. That should release the pressure on me to get home right away if things get busy at work.

I haven't worked out all week since I've been trying to get my bearings on my new schedule.  I received Brazlian Butt workout from and I would like to try it but again, I don't really have the time yet.  Our heater went out during this storm and we have to try and fix it or get it fixed.  Greg is a fantastic handyman and he can usually fix just about anything.

Saturday, January 16, 2010


I have the bug to pick up my sewing again (not that I ever really stopped) and make a cloth doll.  I have done it in the past and did a pretty good job.  So, like many of my hobbies where I do it in spurts, it's time to dust off the sewing machine and pull out my doll making books and begin again. Creative Cloth Doll Making by Patti Medaris Culea is one of the best out there.  Her cloth dolls are beautiful and fairly simple to make.  I cannot say that my creations are very artistic (I don't think I'm that creative), but it is fun to do and since I am an avid collector of fashion dolls such as the Robert Tonner line, making my own is sometimes fun.

I actually became an doll collector years ago when I decided to begin collecting Barbie dolls.  I had always loved Barbies and had made a promise to myself that I would one day have every Barbie made.  The advent of the Internet showed me an entire world of doll collecting and better still, repaints.  I discovered that people were taking vinyl fashion dolls and repainting the faces to make new characters.  Some of the work I discovered was beautiful and very unique.  However, these artists weren't using Barbies.  They were using a doll named Gene Marshall- a 16 inch fashion doll modeled after the movie stars of the 1930s and 1940s.  I fell in love with the Gene doll after that and never looked at another Barbie again. 

Gene Marshall introduced me to the world of Tyler Wentworth dolls, designed by Robert Tonner.  His dolls are amazing and he has expanded his line from Tyler Wentworth to include Alice in Wonderland, Cinderella, and Wizard of Oz, just to name a few.

Thursday, January 14, 2010

Shakology and

I had received my monthly order of Shakology - by far the best meal shake I have ever tasted (I swear, its like a fast-food chocolate milkshake!) - and with it came 2 workout videos: a 30 minute and a 50 minute workout. Since I have been bored with P90X, I decided to do the 30 minute workout.

I didn't much care for the woman who was leading the workout but it was a nice little routine. It was an intense little workout - perfect for anyone just beginning to exercise. It wasn't enough for me personally but if you are short on time, its a good workout.

Yesterday, I also renewed my relationship with and the transformation stories on that site. It was re-energizing for me to get back on track with my eating and exercise. After all, I won't lose the weight and transform by body unless I work at it.

One of the things I noticed is that most people eat the same foods over and over again. Some of them even note in their blogs that the same diet can get boring. But the foods are all clean and lean.

Another motivation was looking at my thighs in shorts last night. I was giving Matthew a bath and noticed the cottage cheese thighs reaching down to my knees!! Yuck!!! I have to work that crap off.

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

I have been offered another position at work so I have been extremely busy trying to make that transition. I haven't pushed play but I have been taking power walks (and I do mean POWER) with my baby and my dog at the end of the day because I don't want to set them aside after working so much overtime. It is something we can do together and it really has cleared the mind and keeping me somewhat on the exercise track.

Last night, I had to go to the grocery store for my husband to get some cold medicine. I went to the line and I was standing behind a very obese man. He was purchasing candy, Pepsi, cheese and - believe it or not - weight loss shakes! I couldn't believe my eyes! This man was looking to reduce his calorie count by drinking weight loss shakes while ruining everything with all the candy and soda. I was thinking to myself how much better he would be if he had switched out the candy for some fresh fruit and vegetables.

I then had a realization. I had been slacking off on my own diet the past few weeks - eating more than I should and indulging in too many sweets. The worst part of it was that I knew I was doing it and I just didn't stop. It shocked me that I had so quickly and easily reverted back to lazy eating habits. Granted, I hadn't been eating fast food but my portions were much larger than they should be and the past 2 days I have actually gone to the candy machine and bought candy bars!!!

I looked at the man again. I tell you, there is nothing like seeing it first hand to get you back on track. Luckily, my Shakology arrived yesterday and it came with a 30 minute workout and a 50 minute workout. My lunch bag is stuffed with fruit and vegetables and lean protein as well as my Shakology serving.

I find I am getting bored with P90X. I know, it sounds crazy but I think it is too long. I think a 6-week workout is perfect because after that, I'm looking to change things up and P90X doesn't really do that. It just switches up the same workouts. Hence, I get bored. I really have no desire to do it anymore, let alone for 2 more months. At least, not right now. I was thinking of doing the Shakology workout. I really want more cardio right now.

There is also a new workout called Brazlian Butt that I would love to try but I don't really have the money to purchase another workout.

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

Financial Peace

I listened to Dave Ramsey this morning for the first time in a long time (podcasts are wonderful things, aren't they?). I am working toward becoming debt free and I believe I will begin by having a garage sale this weekend and putting the money into my step 1 - an emergency savings account- something Greg and I never bothered to build.

It's time to go gazelle!

Tuesday, January 5, 2010


It's interesting how life's changes alter the focus of your life. At the beginning of 2008, I was very focused on school and career. I was looking forward to being an empty-nester. Both my teenagers' world was no longer focused on me. I knew they still needed me but I wasn't the center of their world any longer.

Then, I got pregnant. I was unhappy but tried to look at the bright side of it. A baby was always a good thing. The biggest worry was giving birth to a special needs baby. Being of a ripe old age of 44 in maternity years, our fear was that we would produce a child whom neither one of us were capable of dealing with. All the tests proved that the baby was indeed healthy and normal.

The moment Matthew was born, my focus completely changed from myself to him. I no longer cared about career and school. As a young mother, I was still very selfish, putting myself first at every turn. Not that self-absorption is a bad thing but in my haste to make my children independent, I perhaps failed at being there for them all the time.

This was different. My new baby became my world and raising him became my focus. I don't know if this is sick obsession or maturity. I can give to this one what I failed to give to my older children. I realize that career and stuff is so unimportant and that self is usually full of shit.

This little boy is my sunshine.

Monday, January 4, 2010

The New Year

Resolution: I will log my food and exercise intake at on a daily basis.

Resolution: I will do my workout at least 5 days per week when I get home from work.

Resolution: I will take 1 hour every weekend to log our spending for the week and maintain our debt snowball as per Dave Ramsey Financial Peace program.

Resolution: I will delegate more household chores to members of my family instead of doing everything myself.

The Journey Begins Again

Start of a new year.
Last spring, I looked at myself in the mirror and saw that pregnanc, no surprisingly, had ruined my already expanding figure. It was time to get in shape and try to get back to a decent size. My family suffers from Type II diabetes (I had experienced gestational diabetes during my pregnancy) and I was determined to reduce my chances of developing it. In addition, my older son had been talking about a new workout - P90X - that he was dying to begin. Hey, I said to myself, sounds good. I'll try it.

I began P90X and found it to be far too advanced for me. I therefore, went onto where I found Slim In 6, a workout geared more to my level of fitness and focused on cardio and lots of squats! Coupled with a great diet, I was on my way.

After six weeks, I had lost 12 pounds and was in my size 10 jeans again. So, I moved onto Chalean Extreme - a program that used more weights. However, all the squats from Slim In 6 did some damage to my left knee and I was soon in a great deal of pain. I had to rest the knee a total of 3 months before it felt strong enough to exercise again. Needless to say, I gain the 12 pounds back, and then some.

I decided to begin P90X. Chalean Extreme was a nice workout but I found myself becoming a little bored with it. P90X really worked me hard and Tony Horton is very entertaining during his workouts. I found myself becoming strong.

Yet, little did I know, I was in for a huge crash. Working full-time in an extremely stressful and complicated job, beginning a master's in Early Childhood Education at ASU, a new baby, and 2 teenagers took its toll and left little time to exercise and get in shape. I was so over-extended that I almost had a breakdown. I sat down with the family and told them that I needed their help - at the very least, around the house. I dropped all my classes and I just concentrated on being with the baby and spending time with my husband. I took a much-needed break to refresh my mind and peace of spirit.

I did not exercise.

Well, I've had my vacation and I am ready to begin again. Today, I start P90X once again - Lean phase which focuses more on cardio than weight training. I have a workout buddy here at work who is doing the program with me. We are keeping each other on track with our eating and exercising.

I need this to stick because I want to be able to dance at Matthew's wedding.